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Vaknin, Sam, 1961-

"The Suffering of Being Kafka"


Soon, temples sheathed in perspiration, you use the outfit's thick
paper napkins to wipe it off. Loosen your tie. Pretend to be immersed
in calculations. You express strident dissatisfaction and I feign
recoil, as though intimidated by your loudness. Withdrawing to my
second line of defence, I surrender to your simulated wrath.
The signs are here, the gestures, the infinitesimal movements that you
cannot control. I lurk. I know that definite look, that imperceptible
twitch, the inevitability of your surrender.
I am a con man and you are my victim. The swindle is unfolding here and
now, in this very atrium, amid all the extravagance. I am selling your
soul and collecting the change. I am sharpened, like a raw nerve firing
impulses to you, receiving yours, an electrical-chemical dialog,
consisting of your smelly sweat, my scented exudation. I permeate your
cracks. I broker an alliance with your fears, your pains, defence
compensatory mechanisms.
I know you.
I've got to meld us into one. As dusk gives way to night, you trust me
as you do yourself, for now I am nothing less than you. Having adopted
your particular gesticulation, I nod approvingly with every mention of
your family. You do not like me.


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